A whole new beginning~!

this relationship is getting stronger as time goes by.
there were ups and downs.

and even on the verge of breaking up.
no matter how tough it is.
we'll never let go of this relationship.

for the love that we have.

i noe there are somethings that can't be forgotten.
all i can ask for is try ur best.
know wad u wan.
go for it.

wads past is past.
wad we do now is to treasure the present.
cherish every single moment that we get to spent.
look forward to the future.
and plan for it.

i believe!

label: love is to see perfection in imperfection! quote by her.

left 10:38 PM

After wad has happened,
i'm happy to hear the decision she made.

i noe i'm being selfish..
i'm just scared..
not that i dun trust nor believe..
i'm just insecure and does not have the confident to do so.

ever since that day,
i have been cherishing every moment that we spent.
keeping those moments in my mind..
everytime she is doing her work.
i'll be looking at her.
my heart just aches.
tears just wanna burst out.
wondering how long can we last.
i wan it to last forever.
but will we fall apart?
mayb not now.
but how about in the future?

i'm just so afraid to face the future.
not knowing what is gonna happen.

After i watched UP at her house while she was studying.
saw how loving the old man and his wife.
makes me feel like seeing me and her having that kind of life.
so old, yet the love is strong.

i'm just living everyday in fear.
fear of being broken apart.
fear of losing her.

the fear is too big for me to take it.
its devouring me.

this fear makes me realised how madly, deeply i am in love with her.
i noe i can't ask for more.
but to cherish every moment we spent.

i'm just too simple.
all i ask for is to be some one important/ special to you.
some one u can rely on.

ps: dui bu qi! shi wo tai ai ni le..

Label: Ignorance is a bliss. Cherishing is being true.

left 1:39 AM

曲名：爱一直存在 那天我扬起帆 想看看未知的海 心里很多话想说说不出来 虽然我脸上看不出来 天空一样蔚蓝 却换了多少云彩 那时的你让我幸福百分百 是否为我等待 我知道我的爱一直都会存在 没有你泪停不下来 你知道我依赖多不想say googbye 我痛说不出来 我知道我的爱一直都会存在 没有你快乐都停摆 某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂 回头看爱 都在 站在你的门外 我却幸福在徘徊 心里很多话想说说不出来 但我想你一定都明白 时间过的好快 想念却不曾更改 现在的你是否幸福百分百 我应该怎么猜 我知道我的爱一直都会存在 没有你泪停不下来 你知道我依赖多不想say googbye 我痛说不出来 我知道我的爱一直都会存在 没有你快乐都停摆 某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂 回头看爱 都在 我知道我的爱一直都会存在 没有你泪停不下来 你知道我依赖多不想say googbye 我痛说不出来 我知道我的爱一直都会存在 没有你快乐都停摆 某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂 回头看爱 都在 爱一直存在

left 2:29 AM

Alright, its been a long time since i last update!

i had a nightmare last night..
i woke up in tears..
i dreamt that she left me because she still can't forget him...
seeing her back view getting smaller,
our distance getting further..
that fear,
that pain..
is unbearable....
seems like i watch too much of ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni..
while watching,
i cried..
not because of the show..
is because of wat is happening to us.

i admit..
i mind that she still can't forget him..
or tend to think of him..
although i hope it will not affect us..

but sometime i will think of it..
i keep trying to convince myself that she will get over him..
things will get better in time..

i may be the only one that loves her more than her ex..
but i noe..
i'll never be the guy that she love the most..
or should i say..
more than her ex..

the shadow of him is a fear of mine....
i've got nothing else to say or do...
but i keep telling myself that..
if she really love me.
she will forget him..

ps: all these while, that is the only thing i have been wishing and hoping for....
Label: i believe it will get better in time...

left 2:18 AM

there is nothing i can do any more...
i tried very hard....
but i failed...
and i'm getting tired....
starting to lose grip...


WHY????

left 9:17 PM

Happy Birthday to ME!!!!

First of all, Thanks to all my Brothers, Sisters and friends for wishing me Happy Birthday!!!
Secondly, Thanks to Ah Meng, Edmund Leow & Zhuo Hong for the mahjong session and the cake!
Last but not Least, A Special Thanks to my Dearest gf for celebrating my birthday in advance and the present and card! i Love it a lot! =D

4th Sept 09
After knocking off from work at 5.30 pm,
headed to baby's house to put my stuff.
waited for her to prepare then we headed to amk hub.
in the first place,
we planned to catch a movie after dinner,
but she wasn't happy as she screwed her econs prelim paper.
so we had dinner at New York New York,
the serving was okay,
just that the queue was quite long,
so i went bought a boneless thigh chicken for a light snack.
baby hurt her lips,
so can't eat any thing that is not a mouthful size,
so when there is a table for us,
we had our order,
i couldn't finish my food,
so i was bloated already,
can't stop burping,
i noe its a disgrace,
i'm sorry baby!
after we our dinner,
there was time for us to catch a movie,
so in the end we proceed with wad we had planned earlier,
we went to watch THE PROPOSAL!
it was funny and romantic love story!
hahas..
baby cried while watching it! =X
oops,
she gonna kill me if she see this.
after movie,
headed to her house,
took my stuff and head for home..
couldn't receive a goodbye kiss as she is having ulcer on her lips.
poor baby!
it will have to take a few weeks to recover.
that means no kissing for a few weeks =(
fyi, her kiss is my sweetest addiction!
hahas.. XD

5th sept 09
Afternoon went to zhuo hong's hse for mahjong session,
at first we only had 3 person,
then Ah Meng came,
Thanks Ah Meng for the cake!
after Ah Meng came,
we gambled with the rate of 5cents to 10 cents.
lost 50 cents before edmund's friend take over.
hahas.
after that head to sch for the praying of 7th month.
after praying,
headed for home le..
received quite a lot of wishes from my friends,
was quite surprised that some remembered.
hahas.. XD
my dearest sister wished me when i just came online.
chatted with her for awhile,
its been a long time since we last chat..
hahas..

Alright here are some outdated photos.


This is what baby gave me for my birthday! =D
She knows that i need a bottle! and she got me one! *smile*


A close up on the card that she made for my birthday!


This is the card that she made for me on Valentine's day! my first that i received from her! XD


Our 1st Monthsary!


Our 3rd Monthsary!
ps: she din manage to make for our 2nd Monthsary as she is busy with her studies!


Our 4th Monthsary!


A collection of the cards that she made for me! XD


Baby! ur my greatest gift that god has gave me.
For birthday, christmas, valentine's day.
and even EVERYDAY!
Thanks for spending ur time to celebrate my birthday!
i appreciate it a lot!
Loves!

Label: you're the only addiction that rehab can't cure!

left 11:37 PM

*sigh*

the problem will always be there...
there will never be a future,
when the problem exist.
however,
there is no solution....
only determination..

whenever i tink of the problem..
my heart just aches like there is no tomorrow.

Mayb,
i'll never get to see tomorrow...

Label: Tired.. i tried so hard... soooo hard..

left 1:34 AM