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MoMo.
義安理工龍獅團Her Cushion
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Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Starting to lose my confidence~
started to lose my confidence on sunday,
after i met her.
i reached home,
i have a question in my mind,
at first i couldn't recall wad i wan to ask.
in de end i remembered.
any way thats not the main point.
the main point is suddenly i feel lyk seeing her ex's profile,
so i went to her friendster and link them.
after i see their photos,
i started thinking about her past,
thinking how much she love her ex and stuff..
i felt so jealous..
i envy him,
yet feel that he is stupid,
to actually give up on her..
if i were him,
i would still hold on tight.
den today,
i went to visit the guy who is interested in her..
if she happen to visit my blog,
i would refer that guy as "stalker"
she will roughly who am i refering to.
back to the main point,
i went to the guy's archive,
read the post where he actually went down to taka while she is working,
and i read what he posted.
suddenly i feel sad again..
i feel so inferior.
as though i dun worth her..
even though i noe she and that guy are just mere friends or wad ever..
i duno..
i still feel sad..
i just duno y..
right now,
i'm working,
busy typing all the datas,
yet i just couldn't stop thinking and thinking.
DAMN!
why is my mind always thinking of the wrong stuff.
i should be thinking of my work,
yet i think of all these negative stuffs.
past few days,
we were happy,
cause we din think of negative stuffs,
enjoying those moments,
i couldn't stop blaming myself if one day she happens to leave me,
i will never forgive myself..
baby,
i'm sorry...
i couldn't help but to think..
i just wanna let u know,
this is the first time,
i fear so much,
compared to my past,
this love is so deep,
soo deep that i'm scared by it.
so afraid of losing you..
cant image how much u mean to me..
cant image how much my love is for u..
cause its still getting deeper and..
deeper...
lost and insecure~
you found me,
you found me,
lying on the floor~
surrounded,
where were you,
where were you~
started to lose my confidence on sunday,
after i met her.
i reached home,
i have a question in my mind,
at first i couldn't recall wad i wan to ask.
in de end i remembered.
any way thats not the main point.
the main point is suddenly i feel lyk seeing her ex's profile,
so i went to her friendster and link them.
after i see their photos,
i started thinking about her past,
thinking how much she love her ex and stuff..
i felt so jealous..
i envy him,
yet feel that he is stupid,
to actually give up on her..
if i were him,
i would still hold on tight.
den today,
i went to visit the guy who is interested in her..
if she happen to visit my blog,
i would refer that guy as "stalker"
she will roughly who am i refering to.
back to the main point,
i went to the guy's archive,
read the post where he actually went down to taka while she is working,
and i read what he posted.
suddenly i feel sad again..
i feel so inferior.
as though i dun worth her..
even though i noe she and that guy are just mere friends or wad ever..
i duno..
i still feel sad..
i just duno y..
right now,
i'm working,
busy typing all the datas,
yet i just couldn't stop thinking and thinking.
DAMN!
why is my mind always thinking of the wrong stuff.
i should be thinking of my work,
yet i think of all these negative stuffs.
past few days,
we were happy,
cause we din think of negative stuffs,
enjoying those moments,
i couldn't stop blaming myself if one day she happens to leave me,
i will never forgive myself..
baby,
i'm sorry...
i couldn't help but to think..
i just wanna let u know,
this is the first time,
i fear so much,
compared to my past,
this love is so deep,
soo deep that i'm scared by it.
so afraid of losing you..
cant image how much u mean to me..
cant image how much my love is for u..
cause its still getting deeper and..
deeper...
lost and insecure~
you found me,
you found me,
lying on the floor~
surrounded,
where were you,
where were you~
left 11:12 AM
Friday, March 27, 2009
looking forward to the end of work and weekends..
wanna noe y?
cause i get to see her!!
WOOHOO~
baby,
all i wanna say is,
dun think of those sad stuff anymore.
i just want u to be happy.
enjoy those moments that we spent.
Loves~
wanna noe y?
cause i get to see her!!
WOOHOO~
baby,
all i wanna say is,
dun think of those sad stuff anymore.
i just want u to be happy.
enjoy those moments that we spent.
Loves~
left 11:45 AM
Thursday, March 26, 2009
*sigh*
these few days..
we have a lot of misunderstanding..
ytd, tot of going to her sch to fetch her..
however, i tot she will say there isn't a need for me to fetch her from sch..
so i board the train towards jurong..
while in the train.. i was hoping to receive her msg fast.
cause its just a few stops from Admiralty to Yew Tee.
but its was kinda late..
so i have no choice bud to go home..
after that talked on phone for awhile..
at first still okie..
out of a sudden,
she just feel irritated..
there is nothing i can do..
given her personality..
not matter wad i say.
it doesnt help to calm her down..
i felt so useless.
when she is feeling down,
i couldn't do anything..
i always wanted to be beside her.
so that whenever she is feeling down,
there is always a hug to make her feel better.
bud i always cant be there..
i'm so freaking useless...
when she is crying and stuff.
i actually fell asleep..
cause i was too tired from my work..
and i have to wake up early too..
in the end i leave her alone..
in the morning..
she asked me to look at my mail..
den i realised she wrote so many stuff..
telling me that when she needed me..
i went to lala land..
its not that i wan to go lala land..
i'm just too tired..
i hope u understand...
den she said she was disappointed cause i actually went home rather than fetching her from sch..
that was my mistake..
i should have gone there without asking..
y do i always make the wrong decision..
always disappoint her..
always make her sad..
den she began to say that she dun worth my love..
dun wan me to be with a girl lyk her..
i was very very sad..
so i wrote back a long note for her..
waiting for her to come online..
den we chatted on msn..
she said that she s a bad girl.
cause she is bad to others, lyk her ex.
den always go crazy.. thinking that in the end i will leave her because she is crazy..
thinking that i wil get tired of calming her from her craziness.
so i kinda get a lil irritated..
cause she keep looking down on herself.
den i said.. since she noe thats the reason y her ex broke up with her..
y dun u do something to that..
den she said she is already used to being lyk that.
she told me wad she did when she was young..
lyk bully kids and stuff..
mayb thats y she is lyk that?
i really duno wad to do..
so i keep teling her i'm having headache..
feel lyk banging the wall..
den she told me her heart ache..
so she went to rest..
wanting me to give her a wake up call..
hahas.. that pig!
gave her so many missed call oso cant wake her up..
in de end tell me she only received 2 missed call..
den she went to check..
found out that i actually called 30 + missed call..
hahas.. such a pig..
a pig that i love the most..
Baby,
i just wan u to know..
no matter how bad u are.
i will try my best to tolerate it..
give in to u.
compromise u.
but i have to say..
i do have my limits..
and i'm sorry that i leave u alone..
i do wish to be there to give u a hug..
to give u comfort..
and no matter wad..
i will never leave u..
we are going to walk through thick and thin together..
we are gonna share each others happiness and sadness.
we will make it !
we will eventually get together..
so never give up!
never say die!
our love for each other will only get stronger..
i love u, baby!
you mean a lot to me!
ur my everything....
just so afraid to lose u...
these few days..
we have a lot of misunderstanding..
ytd, tot of going to her sch to fetch her..
however, i tot she will say there isn't a need for me to fetch her from sch..
so i board the train towards jurong..
while in the train.. i was hoping to receive her msg fast.
cause its just a few stops from Admiralty to Yew Tee.
but its was kinda late..
so i have no choice bud to go home..
after that talked on phone for awhile..
at first still okie..
out of a sudden,
she just feel irritated..
there is nothing i can do..
given her personality..
not matter wad i say.
it doesnt help to calm her down..
i felt so useless.
when she is feeling down,
i couldn't do anything..
i always wanted to be beside her.
so that whenever she is feeling down,
there is always a hug to make her feel better.
bud i always cant be there..
i'm so freaking useless...
when she is crying and stuff.
i actually fell asleep..
cause i was too tired from my work..
and i have to wake up early too..
in the end i leave her alone..
in the morning..
she asked me to look at my mail..
den i realised she wrote so many stuff..
telling me that when she needed me..
i went to lala land..
its not that i wan to go lala land..
i'm just too tired..
i hope u understand...
den she said she was disappointed cause i actually went home rather than fetching her from sch..
that was my mistake..
i should have gone there without asking..
y do i always make the wrong decision..
always disappoint her..
always make her sad..
den she began to say that she dun worth my love..
dun wan me to be with a girl lyk her..
i was very very sad..
so i wrote back a long note for her..
waiting for her to come online..
den we chatted on msn..
she said that she s a bad girl.
cause she is bad to others, lyk her ex.
den always go crazy.. thinking that in the end i will leave her because she is crazy..
thinking that i wil get tired of calming her from her craziness.
so i kinda get a lil irritated..
cause she keep looking down on herself.
den i said.. since she noe thats the reason y her ex broke up with her..
y dun u do something to that..
den she said she is already used to being lyk that.
she told me wad she did when she was young..
lyk bully kids and stuff..
mayb thats y she is lyk that?
i really duno wad to do..
so i keep teling her i'm having headache..
feel lyk banging the wall..
den she told me her heart ache..
so she went to rest..
wanting me to give her a wake up call..
hahas.. that pig!
gave her so many missed call oso cant wake her up..
in de end tell me she only received 2 missed call..
den she went to check..
found out that i actually called 30 + missed call..
hahas.. such a pig..
a pig that i love the most..
Baby,
i just wan u to know..
no matter how bad u are.
i will try my best to tolerate it..
give in to u.
compromise u.
but i have to say..
i do have my limits..
and i'm sorry that i leave u alone..
i do wish to be there to give u a hug..
to give u comfort..
and no matter wad..
i will never leave u..
we are going to walk through thick and thin together..
we are gonna share each others happiness and sadness.
we will make it !
we will eventually get together..
so never give up!
never say die!
our love for each other will only get stronger..
i love u, baby!
you mean a lot to me!
ur my everything....
just so afraid to lose u...
left 8:03 PM
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
did some soul-searching last night,
i realised all the while i was thinking of the wrong stuff.
she enlighten me..
and we've cleared every misunderstanding that could lead to a failed relationship.
However,
she told me that her ex talked to her..
and showed me some things that her ex said to her...
DAMN!!!
after reading..
i was boiling with anger
,he should learn to respect her..
and he shouldnt take me for the kind of guy lyk him..
cause im totally different from him,
and its an insult to me.
IF i were to see him,
Ha. i duno wad i will do to him..
wack him,
baby girl,
i'm sorry that i disappoint u..
i just dun have confidence in me..
i just duno wad am i thinking..
wads wrong with my mind..
keep thinking of the wrong stuff..
any way,
thanks for enlightening me.
NOTHING CAN STAND IN OUR WAY!!!
NOTHING CAN BREAK US APART!!!
WE ARE MEANT TO BE TGT !!!
*ROAR*
ps; girl, dui bu qi, wo ai ni!
i realised all the while i was thinking of the wrong stuff.
she enlighten me..
and we've cleared every misunderstanding that could lead to a failed relationship.
However,
she told me that her ex talked to her..
and showed me some things that her ex said to her...
DAMN!!!
after reading..
i was boiling with anger
,he should learn to respect her..
and he shouldnt take me for the kind of guy lyk him..
cause im totally different from him,
and its an insult to me.
IF i were to see him,
Ha. i duno wad i will do to him..
wack him,
baby girl,
i'm sorry that i disappoint u..
i just dun have confidence in me..
i just duno wad am i thinking..
wads wrong with my mind..
keep thinking of the wrong stuff..
any way,
thanks for enlightening me.
NOTHING CAN STAND IN OUR WAY!!!
NOTHING CAN BREAK US APART!!!
WE ARE MEANT TO BE TGT !!!
*ROAR*
ps; girl, dui bu qi, wo ai ni!
left 7:47 AM
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Yay!!
No training today,
can go home early...
Alright, right now i'm working yet i'm blogging..
slack right..
muahahas XD
so looking forward to go home.
cause she end sch early..
however she is going back sch to help her friend to assist on Cheerleading..
so will be at home waiting for her~
early in the morning,
was shocked to receive her good morning msg.
cause most of the time is i start msging her in the morning while on the way to work.
i know she have been reading my blog.
cause she told me about it.
den she told me not to be afraid of losing her.
trying to give me assurance.
i do feel better after wad she said,
bud this is just the beginning,
the real challenge is coming soon,
will we survive?
i firmly believe , we will!
nothing can stand in our way!!!
*ROAR*
No training today,
can go home early...
Alright, right now i'm working yet i'm blogging..
slack right..
muahahas XD
so looking forward to go home.
cause she end sch early..
however she is going back sch to help her friend to assist on Cheerleading..
so will be at home waiting for her~
early in the morning,
was shocked to receive her good morning msg.
cause most of the time is i start msging her in the morning while on the way to work.
i know she have been reading my blog.
cause she told me about it.
den she told me not to be afraid of losing her.
trying to give me assurance.
i do feel better after wad she said,
bud this is just the beginning,
the real challenge is coming soon,
will we survive?
i firmly believe , we will!
nothing can stand in our way!!!
*ROAR*
left 4:36 PM
Monday, March 23, 2009
all of a sudden,
i'm not in the mood for anything,
wad exactly am i expecting?
i actually mistaken her words.
B online..
i still tot it was calling me..
bud it means be online..
not calling me..
a sudden of saddness took over me.
aches took over my heart.
my world seems to be engulf by the dark clouds.
the sun is no where to be seen.
rain drops began to hit my body.
trying to ease the aches.
i noe i shouldnt expect more.
however i just cant help it.
ur part of my life.
u took over my mind.
i'm lyk an emtpy shell when im doing other stuff.
a day without contacting hermuch.
makes me feel so uneasy.
i really really miss her so much.
that kind of misses, i have nv experience before.
this kind of love, so deep..
right now, i'm still falling,
this kind of fall,
nv had it before..
she is the one~
the one that i'm searching for all along.
always wanted to ask her that question,
bud i noe wad her ans will be....
still waiting~
i'm not in the mood for anything,
wad exactly am i expecting?
i actually mistaken her words.
B online..
i still tot it was calling me..
bud it means be online..
not calling me..
a sudden of saddness took over me.
aches took over my heart.
my world seems to be engulf by the dark clouds.
the sun is no where to be seen.
rain drops began to hit my body.
trying to ease the aches.
i noe i shouldnt expect more.
however i just cant help it.
ur part of my life.
u took over my mind.
i'm lyk an emtpy shell when im doing other stuff.
a day without contacting hermuch.
makes me feel so uneasy.
i really really miss her so much.
that kind of misses, i have nv experience before.
this kind of love, so deep..
right now, i'm still falling,
this kind of fall,
nv had it before..
she is the one~
the one that i'm searching for all along.
always wanted to ask her that question,
bud i noe wad her ans will be....
still waiting~
left 8:52 PM
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Yesterday, she hurt my pride.
i was sad.. very very sad.
though i may make it sound lyk its de end of us.
thats because i feel inferior.
den she was in bad mood.
cause i tink she had quarrel with her family.
so went to look for her.
sent her home at 8 plus.
after seeing her to the lift.
i was on my way to MRT station,
i began to miss her.
those kisses, those hugs.
those were the moments that i treasure.
her smile was nv fails to brighten my day.
reached home, chat with her.
i noe she had to do work.
so i accompanied her till her finished her work.
when she completed her work.
i knew she gonna fall asleep.
so we hung up.
after that i went to bed.
when im in bed, i tot of wad happened,
the pride that she hurt.
those words that she said,
i know she was just joking,
bud it hurts deeply,
when i tink about it,
my heart was aching lyk it has been pierce through.
den tears start to roll down my cheeks.
a lot of thinking is going through in my mind.
sometimes i wonder, did she behave the same way when she was with other guys in the past?
i just love her so much,
that im so afraid of losing her.
bud she gonna get busy with her studies soon,
the chances of us meeting is much lower.
im so afraid that feelings may fade during that period of time.
when she said that she dun wan me to want her.
i really duno wad she is tinking.
keep looking down on herself.
all i wan was to be her boy.
all i wan was her to be mrs goh.
i noe she cant commit.
i understand it.
im just so afraid....
i was sad.. very very sad.
though i may make it sound lyk its de end of us.
thats because i feel inferior.
den she was in bad mood.
cause i tink she had quarrel with her family.
so went to look for her.
sent her home at 8 plus.
after seeing her to the lift.
i was on my way to MRT station,
i began to miss her.
those kisses, those hugs.
those were the moments that i treasure.
her smile was nv fails to brighten my day.
reached home, chat with her.
i noe she had to do work.
so i accompanied her till her finished her work.
when she completed her work.
i knew she gonna fall asleep.
so we hung up.
after that i went to bed.
when im in bed, i tot of wad happened,
the pride that she hurt.
those words that she said,
i know she was just joking,
bud it hurts deeply,
when i tink about it,
my heart was aching lyk it has been pierce through.
den tears start to roll down my cheeks.
a lot of thinking is going through in my mind.
sometimes i wonder, did she behave the same way when she was with other guys in the past?
i just love her so much,
that im so afraid of losing her.
bud she gonna get busy with her studies soon,
the chances of us meeting is much lower.
im so afraid that feelings may fade during that period of time.
when she said that she dun wan me to want her.
i really duno wad she is tinking.
keep looking down on herself.
all i wan was to be her boy.
all i wan was her to be mrs goh.
i noe she cant commit.
i understand it.
im just so afraid....
left 3:09 PM
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
231108 was the day we first met.
we knew each other from work.
after that day, i start to contact her.
as each day past, i began to fall in love with her.
theres one time where i went shopping at town,
i noe she is working at taka at that point of time,
was confused.
keep asking myself, should i or should i not.
cause i duno how she felt about me.
bud in de end i still went to look for her =)
im so contented just to see her.
after awhile, just before valentine,
she came to my house to visit my dog.
den in de end she told me she came to my house
because she couldnt meet me on the actual valentine's day.
was so happy bud sad cause i had to go for my driving lesson.
so she been there for around an hour or so.
felt so bad that i couldn't sent her home =(
the day after valentine.
its a sunday, a day which i work.
and surprisingly, i saw a friend of mine shopping.
so was chatting den i saw a girl came in.
look so familiar.
its was her!
i went to talk to her.
she gave me a valentine's day card which she made by herself.
OMG! i'm so touched.
so i ask another promoter to look after the counter.
den i went to walk walk with her.
she was trying to buy a clock for her sis as her sis requested her to look for a nice clock.
and she was also shopping for valentine's day gifts for her friends.
after awhile i had to go back to work.
den she went to her grandma house.
after a few weeks, we met up on weekends.
she was feeling down and felt lyk eating her fav.
so i accompanied her.
was happy to see her again.
another few weeks later, went to her house on sunday.
to visit her dog. SNOWY!!
her dog was very cute and active, unlike mine.
went home after that.
another saturday, my friends wanted to go yishun.
so i followed, when we are at yishun, they wanted to go clementi to play lan,
so i din follow.
while walking to mrt station, i was msging with her.
she is studying at GV's burger king.
so was trying to decide whether to go look for her cause she is studying and she is with her friend.
so i stood outside the control station waiting for her msg.
cause i noe i do wan to see her.
in de end i did.
after she finished studying, sent her home.
den i rushed home to change den went to club with my lion dance mates.
i was so unlucky that day, cause my phone went flat before i could meet my mates.
luckily i went to the control station to wait.
saw one of my mates.
bud i was sad, cause i cant msg her
after clubbing, i sent her a msg.
and surprisingly, she was not asleep yet.
cause she fell asleep earlier.
so she decided to stay up and do her work.
den i proceed to one of my mates house to play mahjong,
guess wad..
in de end i cant take it and i fell asleep.
last saturday, 140309
went to watch movie with her.
we watched Coming Soon,
held her hands to make her feel warm.
so that she wun be scare.
in de end i feel the movie sucks.
not scary at all. the storyline sucks.
den i sent her home.
while on the way to her house, saw her sis.
we were holding hands.
uh oh~ tot her sis is going to ask her many many questions.
bud her sis din.
the next day, went to meet her again.
went to her house play with her dogs.
den went home .
we just behave lyk a couple,
bud i noe she is not ready to get into a relationship,
commitment is the key factor.
she doesnt have the time.
i dun mind about it.
i just noe we are meant for each other.
no matter we are couple in name or not.
thats not a matter to me any more.
she may sounds/ treat me bad,
bud i noe she is just joking.
bud sometimes will feel sad because the joke isnt funny.
however, its okie.
i compromise her.
isnt that wad leads to a successful relationship?
hahas..
i miss her sho much!
loves being with her =)
we knew each other from work.
after that day, i start to contact her.
as each day past, i began to fall in love with her.
theres one time where i went shopping at town,
i noe she is working at taka at that point of time,
was confused.
keep asking myself, should i or should i not.
cause i duno how she felt about me.
bud in de end i still went to look for her =)
im so contented just to see her.
after awhile, just before valentine,
she came to my house to visit my dog.
den in de end she told me she came to my house
because she couldnt meet me on the actual valentine's day.
was so happy bud sad cause i had to go for my driving lesson.
so she been there for around an hour or so.
felt so bad that i couldn't sent her home =(
the day after valentine.
its a sunday, a day which i work.
and surprisingly, i saw a friend of mine shopping.
so was chatting den i saw a girl came in.
look so familiar.
its was her!
i went to talk to her.
she gave me a valentine's day card which she made by herself.
OMG! i'm so touched.
so i ask another promoter to look after the counter.
den i went to walk walk with her.
she was trying to buy a clock for her sis as her sis requested her to look for a nice clock.
and she was also shopping for valentine's day gifts for her friends.
after awhile i had to go back to work.
den she went to her grandma house.
after a few weeks, we met up on weekends.
she was feeling down and felt lyk eating her fav.
so i accompanied her.
was happy to see her again.
another few weeks later, went to her house on sunday.
to visit her dog. SNOWY!!
her dog was very cute and active, unlike mine.
went home after that.
another saturday, my friends wanted to go yishun.
so i followed, when we are at yishun, they wanted to go clementi to play lan,
so i din follow.
while walking to mrt station, i was msging with her.
she is studying at GV's burger king.
so was trying to decide whether to go look for her cause she is studying and she is with her friend.
so i stood outside the control station waiting for her msg.
cause i noe i do wan to see her.
in de end i did.
after she finished studying, sent her home.
den i rushed home to change den went to club with my lion dance mates.
i was so unlucky that day, cause my phone went flat before i could meet my mates.
luckily i went to the control station to wait.
saw one of my mates.
bud i was sad, cause i cant msg her
after clubbing, i sent her a msg.
and surprisingly, she was not asleep yet.
cause she fell asleep earlier.
so she decided to stay up and do her work.
den i proceed to one of my mates house to play mahjong,
guess wad..
in de end i cant take it and i fell asleep.
last saturday, 140309
went to watch movie with her.
we watched Coming Soon,
held her hands to make her feel warm.
so that she wun be scare.
in de end i feel the movie sucks.
not scary at all. the storyline sucks.
den i sent her home.
while on the way to her house, saw her sis.
we were holding hands.
uh oh~ tot her sis is going to ask her many many questions.
bud her sis din.
the next day, went to meet her again.
went to her house play with her dogs.
den went home .
we just behave lyk a couple,
bud i noe she is not ready to get into a relationship,
commitment is the key factor.
she doesnt have the time.
i dun mind about it.
i just noe we are meant for each other.
no matter we are couple in name or not.
thats not a matter to me any more.
she may sounds/ treat me bad,
bud i noe she is just joking.
bud sometimes will feel sad because the joke isnt funny.
however, its okie.
i compromise her.
isnt that wad leads to a successful relationship?
hahas..
i miss her sho much!
loves being with her =)
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