Yesterday, she hurt my pride. i was sad.. very very sad. though i may make it sound lyk its de end of us. thats because i feel inferior. den she was in bad mood. cause i tink she had quarrel with her family. so went to look for her. sent her home at 8 plus. after seeing her to the lift. i was on my way to MRT station, i began to miss her. those kisses, those hugs. those were the moments that i treasure. her smile was nv fails to brighten my day.
reached home, chat with her. i noe she had to do work. so i accompanied her till her finished her work. when she completed her work. i knew she gonna fall asleep. so we hung up. after that i went to bed.
when im in bed, i tot of wad happened, the pride that she hurt. those words that she said, i know she was just joking, bud it hurts deeply, when i tink about it, my heart was aching lyk it has been pierce through. den tears start to roll down my cheeks. a lot of thinking is going through in my mind. sometimes i wonder, did she behave the same way when she was with other guys in the past? i just love her so much, that im so afraid of losing her. bud she gonna get busy with her studies soon, the chances of us meeting is much lower. im so afraid that feelings may fade during that period of time. when she said that she dun wan me to want her. i really duno wad she is tinking. keep looking down on herself. all i wan was to be her boy. all i wan was her to be mrs goh. i noe she cant commit. i understand it. im just so afraid....