yesterday went back to sch for training,
injured my toe.
and guess wad..
when i reached home,
i took of my shoe and socks..
damn! my toe partly is black..
black as in blue black..
and it felt swollen..
i cant even bend or straighten my toe..
i'm barely walking..
seems more lyk limping..

baby was kinda stress..
cause she has lots of work to be done by thurs.
and she is mentally worn out..
she felt sleepy.. so i asked her to sleep first..
when we are on the phone..
she is already fallen asleep..
called out for her quite a few times and no answer..
so i hung up the phone..
baby called back after i sent her a goodnight msg..
in de end she oso fell asleep..
my piggy! how i wish i can watch her sleep..

this morning, baby couldn't wake up early to do work..
partly my fault..
cause my alarm rang at 4 plus..
i was too tired,
went back to sleep instead of giving baby a morning call..
i'm sorry...
she was unnhappy with herself..
the lift broke down..
and i tink she was half way through when she just realised that she forgotten her file.
i noe she must be feeling damn screwed at that point of time.

it hurt me so much to see her lyk this..
when she is down.
wadever i said doesn't help..
cause she wun listen..
an i can't help much..
i'm so damn bloody useless..
all i wan is to do something for her..
i wan her to feel better..
thats y whenever she is feeling down i tried to joke..
bud it doesnt help..
she wans me to be serious and joke at the right time..
i'm sorry that i cant do that..
i can't solve her probs..
all i can do is stay by her side..
giving her my support..
when she is doing work..
i have to stay awake..
in case she went crazy due to stress..
so that i can give her comfort when she needs me..

imma superman in making.
i have to stay strong..
i have to endure..
i have to tolerate...
i have to be there!
i will always be there!

ps: its just the beginning ~

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