WOOHOOO!!!
Today is a special day!!!
ITS....

Our 1st Monthsary!!!
YAY!!!!

1st month marks the beginning!
there will be more to come!!
=D

bud the sad thing is..
we can't get to celebrate..
she will be busy with her studies,
i'm busy with work..
weekends, she is having tchoukball competition...
so we cant get to meet for long...
all i can do is,
hopefully my driving lesson is in the morning,
den i'll head to her competition venue.
watch her play and give her my support..


and to those who look down on me!!
i'll prove to u with actions that i'm no longer that kind of guy who keep changing girlf!

in the past,
i was popular among girls..
cause i was quite fit lar..
unlike now..
and in sec sch..
its much easier to find girls..
and to tink about it..

i admit i was quite childish in the past..
who keep getting in and out of relationship..
what a dumb thing to do..

as i grow older..
i get to understand the true meaning of being together..

its about the love and going through the challenge of time together..
being there for each other..

sometimes i just wish that..
i can lie on the beach with her..
just the two of us.
enjoying the breeze..
night time,
look up and gaze upon the stars..
that peace is so wonderful..

ps: baby, Happy 1st monthsary! =D

left 11:39 AM

this morning,
woke up at 4.30 to gave baby a morning call..
bud before i gave her morning call..
i woke up in tears..
had a nightmare that seems so real..

all i can remember is..
i saw her with her ex..
the one that she truly loved..

thinking of the love she had for him..
makes me damn jealous..
that jealousy feel so real..

the pain that my heart was undergoing feels so real..

now,
all my fears are coming back to me..
they are haunting me..
been having sleepless night...

every night..
i have been having nightmare...
just that its not as serious as last night...

seriously,
i just afraid of losing her..

i oso have nightmare,
dreaming of her going clubbing..
she got drunk.
and kanna taken advantage by other guys..
for those who noe me inside out,
they noe i dun like my girlf to be taken advantage by other guys..
or should i say,
no guys will wan to let other guys take advantage of their girlf.
no guys will wan to let their girlf exposed.
guys will noe that..
there are perverts who take upskirts photos.
thats why i kinda feel that..
they should at least wear a shorts when they are wearing skirt.
shorts like FBT.

*sigh*
i'm just so afraid.

and i noe..
i'm possessive..

and i noe
i am being over possessive..

that can be a good and bad thing..

its good because..
it means that she meant a lot to me..
and i really really care about her..
its also means that i truly love her..
compare to all my previous relationship..
i only had that once..
this time..
will be the second time..
i dun wan history to repeat..
i'm sick and tired of all these.

its bad because..
there will be lots of argument and quarrel.
there is gonna be lots of unhappiness...
its all my fault..
i just duno why i cant change that over possessiveness within me..

it happened once..
it happened in my past relationship...
and i told myself i'm not gonna let it happen again..
bud..
in the end...
i still cant manage to change it..
DAMN!!!

really getting sick and tired of all these fears..
why cant they leave me alone..
*sigh*


lost and insecure....
i guess all i can say is i'm sorry..
i tried hard....
a virgo always tends to regret..
however, i dun regret being with u...
bud i regret for the cause of all those unhappiness...

left 8:57 AM

when shopping with baby..
was shopping for her bag..
den in the first place was kinda hungry when reached bugis..
cause i haven not had my lunch/ breakfast.
so i bought a boneless thigh chicken from seoul..
yummy!!!
its been a long time since i last ate it.
i always had that when i'm still working at bugis as a promoter..
bud guess what!!
one of my teeth actually chipped off without me knowing...
freak!!!..
i'm one teeth less now!!...
and i'm having a toothache..
so i guess i nid to see a dentist soon..
was so afraid that the dentist will pluck out all of my teeth!!
scary..

okay.
so i got myself a wallet and baby couldn't find a bag that she wans..
den we went Illuma,
the new shopping mall...
its damn big!!!!
bud i guess because it wasn't complete yet..
as most of the stores are still under renovation...

hmmm..
baby's school is having a public concert at republic poly..
and guess what.
she intend to wear a tee and skirt for the concert.
hahas...
den she called and ask her friends what they are wearing..
and her friends said that her dressing is kinda inappropriate.
so accompanied her home..
and changed into dress..

OMG!!!
baby look so damn hot and gorgeous..
gonna kill all the guys out there..
hahas...
and we took the train towards jurong east..
baby's friend is meeting her on the way to woodland..
and her friend board the train at sembawang.
hahas..

*sigh*
was kinda sad..
my heart was aching all the way home..
till now its still aching...
those eyes...
the ache has been there ever since she just alighted from the train..
all i could do is watch her walking away..
and the train is gonna move off..
i kept looking...
seriously i duno why..
tears just keep struggling to flow..
why do we have to part?
why cant the time just pause there...

WHY!!!


i shouldn't be tinking..
bud i can't help..
i'm sorry...

ps: 2 more days...

left 8:28 PM

*sigh*
seriously,
i really duno whats happening now..

my heart was aching,
when i heard baby said that,
she dun like someone to tell her what to do.
*sigh*
i was just concern about her..
is that wrong??

*sigh*
i really duno to care or not to care..
care also wrong..
dun care also wrong...

can some one just tell me what to do??
i'm really confused...
sometimes,
her temper just change so fast..
*sigh*

i'm lost.....
i've lost my sense of direction..
sometimes i'm speechless.

baby asked me what was i tinking..
now i kinda sorted out my thinking..

i was thinking,
is this relationship on a right track to lasting?
or it is going the opposite way..

*sigh*
there is so much air within me...


my emotions have ruled over my mind..
i can no longer think properly..
its u..
a girl that i love so deeply..
have made such a huge impact on me..
u are my everything..
everything that i have...

left 11:11 PM

Thinking.....

left 8:14 AM

AHHHHH!!!!!
i was supposed to wake up at 5 to give baby a morning call!!
and guess wad..
i couldn't even wake up!!!!
=(

anyway,
baby is having her A's Bio SPA later on.
GOOD LUCK BABY!!!
JIAYOU! JIAYOU! JIAYOU!!!

looking out my window,
saw the stars and the moon,
its reminds me of you,
those laughter,
those embrace,
those love,
its so beautiful,
just like you.

baby, i love you!

left 9:05 AM

thinking.....
baby was asking me what was i thinking..
somehow i just couldn't remember..

hmmm..
well, i recalled wad i was thinking..

hmmm..
i was kinda sad when baby said that i'm one who can't comfort her when she is feeling stress..
once again,
my negative thoughts..
i felt so useless..
my baby feels stress..
and yet i couldn't do anything..
all i wan is to help her..
be the one whom she can rely on.
*sigh*

and when she said she wouldn't praise someone..
i was thinking back..
its quite true that she dun praise someone..
even joking also wouldn't.
hmmm...
i guess i have to accept it..
rather than being that perfectionist..

left 8:34 PM

okay!
i cant seem to focus,
cause my manager and supervisor are in batam auditing!
and here comes my freedom!
muahaha!!!

so did a few quiz on facebook.

"what animal were u in the past?"
the result is;
A dove, You are very peaceful and nice. You fall in love very easily and you are quiet and calm. You are not very shy but you are not outgoing. You are a leader of your group of friends.

Woot!
imma bird!
imma plane!
imma SOUP-PER-MAN!!
=X

"Calculate ur Ideal Weight"
the result is 63kg!!!
DAMN!!!
i'm far from that!
its time for some serious fats kicking!
kick always all excessive fats that is covering my abs!
PROJECT MILS!
muahahas!!!

okay!
i'm kinda crazy today!!!

and back to serious matters!
i've gt lots of work to do!!!!!
and i'm behind time!

ciaos!

left 9:50 AM

OMG!!
have been busy doing my Interim Report.
and i figured out how to do my appendix!!
WOOHOOO
*CLAP*

anyway,
its been just a day since i last saw baby,
and i'm missing her badly already..
*sigh*

and i had a nightmare last night..
kinda scary,
cause it feels real..

i kinda remember wad my nightmare is about..
kinda one day,
i was picking up baby after her work,
and she kinda told me that she is going to club with her colleague or friends..
kinda can't remember that..
den after that i tink i said something lyk okay lor..
den i kinda went home..
after tat,
i was worried about her..
so i kinda borrowed a car from someone..
and drive to the club..
wait for her..
den i kinda saw her and another guy..
and she seems kinda drunk..
they seems kinda hugging each other..
den i was quite disappointed and furious..
so i went up gave that guy a punch..
den kinda quarrel with her..
den i wake up le..

pretty scary...
imagine me punching a guy..
which i nv did in my entire life..
i have never been in a fight before..
and that kind of anger..
i just duno why it feels so real..

thats the part that is very scary..
a nightmare that makes me feel the anger..
O.O

well, its just a nightmare..
and nightmare dun come true..
MUAHAHAH!!!

alright, shall get back to my work..
tatas!

ps: 6 more days.

left 9:03 AM

how i wish i have a wide vocab of how to describe a bastard.
*sigh*
i noe she dun like to see this kind of post..
bud its just how i feel.

i feel that i will only hinder her studies..
i'm of no much help to her..
i just hate myself for disturbing her when she is studying..
and when we are suppose to do our work..
i ended up sleeping on her bed..
which in de end makes her sleepy too..

such a bastard i am!
i just cant forgive myself..

when i tink about it..
i feel that i dun worth her love..
bud at the same time..
i'm thankful that i have her..

why am i so self-centered?
why must i be so selfish?
why can't i just spare a thought for her.

i just wanna tell her..
i'm thankful for the love she have for me..
i'm thankful for sparing time out of her busy and stressful life for me..
and i apreciated it..
i'm sorry baby!
i'm sorry~

left 9:40 PM

idk wads happening..
somehow i feel that,
we are kind of drifting apart..
is i too sensitive or wad?
i just notice that she has been calling me darling lesser..
or mayb i wish to see that magic word?
idk..
i just feel that its not the same anymore..
*sigh*

ytd when i was in the office,
i kept looking at my phone..
my mind was thinking of her..
missing her madly still,
my heart aches.
den my vision start to get blur..
*sigh*

i noe she is busy..
i noe she doesn't have the time.
i understand..

and i thank her for sparing some time for me..
its been hard on her.
and whenever she finished her work,
by that time,
i'm half awake or either i fall asleep le..
*sigh*

i've been thinking..
thinking of our future..


ps: Endure! and holding on still..
i just wanna say...
after all,
i'm still madly and deeply in love with her.
she is always on my mind and in my heart.

left 8:47 AM

i dunno why i have been looking at my phone since morning,
hoping to receive a text from her.
i guess i'm just not used to a day without msging or talking??
and wad came to my mind was,
how will i be able to survive if i'm enlisted,
or even when she is gone.
i found no answer to that question.

*sigh*

left 3:52 PM

its been awhile since my last post.
have been busy at work,
having OT almost everyday.
end work at 8.
reach home still have to rush my interim report.
F*** up attachment i have,
to recall back,
before we start our attachment,
we tot that we dun have to do report and just work and learn.
however,
we were WRONG!!
damn!
40 pages of report,
how many i going to write,
its been 2 days and i only manage to write 10 pages.

any way,
i was taking a short break from my work,
gonna continue later on,
so i did a few quiz on FB.

the first quiz i took is"how long will your relationship last"
and guess wad,
my result is FOREVER!
WOOHOO!

and the second quiz i took is "Who is your perfect match?"
and my result is
Perfect Partners: Taurus, Capricorn
Nearly Perfect Partners: Cancer, Scorpio
Like Minded Souls: Virgo
Opposites Youre Attracted To: Aries, Aquarius
Learn From Your Differences: Leo, Libra
Not Your Destiny: Gemini, Sagittarius
Astrological Hell: Pisces

and guess wad..
my baby is a Taurus!
WOOHOO~!!
feel so happy to see the results.
hahas =)
though the quiz may not be true.
bud still..
muahaha!

alright i shall go back to my work!
tatas!

ps: baby, we are a perfect match! =D

left 2:12 PM

this morning,
i was reading those msg that we quarrelled.
and i find that what she said wad true.
i find that i'm not understanding enough..
i'm so thankful that she make me woke up.
i'm so thankful that i've found her..
i'm so thankful for the love she give.
i failed my duty as a boyf.
i did not spare tots for her.

she is my angel!


any way,
i din have the mood for anything..
was being told off by my supervisor.
make me feel so bad.
and those interim report that the previous student did.
make me feel so stress.
m supervisor said,
those students were very automatic in the work they do.
and i feel that i'm the worst student they ever had.
sit there surf net and wait for work to be given.
i hate legislation!
i hate attachment!
i just wanna play!
i wan my holiday!
i wan to go back to sch!
most importantly,
I HATE DOING REPORT!!!!!!!!!!

left 9:34 PM

*sigh*
this few days,
we had been quarrelling..
and she is getting irritated easily..
i really duno wad to do.
i dun wan to quarrel.
really hurts me to quarrel with her..
and i start to tink.
do i understand her well enough?
this morning we quarrelled.
and we had a better understanding of each other.

bud i really have to say this..
imma bad boyfriend.
i'm so self-centered.
i only tink about myself.
nv consider her feelings.
yet she considered my feelings.
i feel so bad.
i'm gonna change!
i'm not gonna glue to her.
as in keep wanting to msg her and stuff.
cause i noe she have to focus and she doesn't have the time.
i will only be a burden and hinder her studies.
so i've decided to find things to do.
lyk go jogging while she is doing her work.
and we'll meet once a week.
i dun wan to see this relationship to end.
i really don't.

today,
we met up to go jurong point.
cause she nv been there.
so i'm on my way to orchard to meet her.
while on the train.
i've been thinking about those quarrel we had.
my tears just seems to start rolling.
i hold back my tears.
bud the ache is still there.
even when i was preparing to go out.
my tears already started to roll down my cheeks.
i just can't help it.
i can't control it.
i'm struggling to hold back those tears.
i noe i'm such a cry baby..
i just dun wanna lose her.
afterall,
she is the only girl that i've love so deeply.
compared to all my previous relationship.

i just hope everything will feel the same..
will be the same as before.
bud i noe..
it will nv be..
somehow,
more or less, there will be changes.
*sigh*

ps: baby, i noe u will be unhappy after u read this post..
its just all that i've gotta say.

left 10:43 PM

days of sleepless nights is gonna begin.
woke up with my fear covered with tears.
living my life with fear.
fearing that the end will come one day.

left 1:10 PM

i'm sorry!

left 11:40 AM

All i wan is just her to be happy..

dui bu qi!

i really din tink of wad her tink that i will be.
i really hate to quarrel with her.
it just hurts me to see her unhappy.

i dun wan that thing to affect us.
*sigh*
sometimes all i need is words of assurance from her.
i just wan her to stop hiding things from me.
i wan to noe wad is she tinking about.

left 11:49 PM

Human nature;
today,
i realise a lot of things about human nature.
i realise that,
every one make stupid mistakes,
be it in the past or future.
sometimes when they tink back,
they find themselve stupid,
and ask why will they do something so stupid in the first place.
sometimes,
its just hard to explain,
human nature is so mystical.

i also realised that,
actually,
imma damn selfish guy,
i'm not a nice guy,
neither am i a bad guy,
just somewhere in the grey shade.
not white nor black,

and to tink about this relationship,
i kinda find myself,
being the one who is glued to her.
which i tink it may bored her out.
and will irritate her.
causing her to get tired of me,
i find myself damn naggy and stuff.
why the hell am i still so childish?
why can't i be serious?
why do i tink so much?
why?

i just dun get that answer to my questions.
will i be more mature when i'm out of NS?
mayb,
will i still be as childish as before after NS?
mayb.
life is so uncertain.
so unpredictable.

love is something that is sweet,
yet sometimes bitter,
it enjoy torturing people.

i also realised that,
why do i always post how much i love her,
how much i miss her and stuff?
why?
love isn't something that words can describe.
bud i've gt the answer for this question.
i type it out,
to release the torture within me,
the struggle i'm going through,
to make me feel better,
sometimes i just wish,
she can tell me how much i mean to her.
that kind of feeling is something that is so rare.
so unique.
imma guy that can be sensitive,
bud blur,
and i tink the wrong stuff.
why am i born to be lyk this??
why?
somehow,
i feel that i'm a perfectionist.
who wants things to go my way.
and when tinks dun go my way,
i'll keep thinking and tinking and tinking..
thats y,
i always tink about her past.
its not an excuse or something,
its just something that i realised.

and i noe,
things wun always go the way u wanted to.
there is always this possibility that lead the things u wanted to another route.
from a one way road,
u reached a junction.
there are split route ahead.
its depends on how u tink,
wad u expect,
how u react,
so that i will turn out to be the way u wanted to go.

however, there are somethings that canot be controlled by us.
u may be on the one way road,
bud there are traps ahead,
u fall into a trap,
and that leads u to another route.
its something that is unavoidable.

ps: humans tend to regrets on the stupid mistake that they made.

left 4:49 PM

finally its friday!
i'm at work right now..
and i'm looking forward to the end of work.
that means i get to rest!
and i miss my baby so much!
i wan to see her badly!
however,
sat i'm busy with lion dance performance for vesak day.
after that i still gt mother's day celebration.
so couldn't meet her.
we initially planned to go out on sunday.
bud now still not confirm yet.
as last night,
she told me that sunday her mum and her aunt are going to celebrate mother's day.
its in the afternoon some more!
if we aren't able to meet this week.
i have to wait till next week!!!
its a torture!
cause i'll have to wait for another week!
(TooT)

imy, baby!

left 3:00 PM

yesterday,
kanna reprimanded by my supervisor.
damn..
cause the instruction he told me i mistook it.
scan the document wrongly.
he gave me 3 missed call.
and i din realised it.
my phone vibration wasn't strong.
couldn't feel it.
feeling so damn screwed.
plus i'm not feeling well.
been having toothache since morning.
and the pain affect both side of my face,
leading to my brain.
therefore, i lose my focus.
and my supervisor said i'm losing concentration oso.
told him the reason and he said he dun care about the reason.
*sigh*
glad baby was there to comfort me.
so when i reached home,
the toothache was still there.
so initially, i only wanted to close my eyes to rest.
however,
i fell asleep.
and baby sent me msges.
around 8 plus den i woke up.
den i saw the msges.
replied baby.
den wait for her to do finish her work.
around 9 p.m
baby called.
she was taking a rest from her work.
half way through,
baby fell asleep..
hahas.
my piggy baby!
*OINK* =X
around 9.40,
baby auto wake up.
miracle happen sia =X
after that,
baby continued studying.
so i waited for her to finish studying.
around 12.45 baby asked me to call her.
hahas..
another half way through,
can hear that baby is falling asleep.
cause wad she said doesn't link at all!!
its just lyk she is talking nonsense stuff..
hahas.
my baby is so adorable!
so i asked her to go and sleep.
so we hung up the phone.
around midnight 1 plus,
baby sent me a msg and its just a crying smiley.
so i was worried about her.
and i called.
baby told me she had a nightmare.
dreaming that i was very very very bad to her..
comfort baby and den we hung up the phone.

Ps: i'm still falling in love with my baby!
the way she talk is so adorable! =D
i'm so glad that i've found her!

left 9:21 AM

*sigh*
last night baby was tired..
so studied half way..
she went to take a short nap..
i was to wake her up at 10.
so i called her at 10.
couldn't wake her up.
around 10.30,
her phone low batt.
so was kinda forced to wake up.
she talked to me on msn.
so i tot she was up.
so i replied.
tinking that how come so long she still nv reply.
tot she would be studying.
so i went to bathe.
never did i noe..
she actually went back to sleep!!!!!
*faint*
so i called her..
keep asking her to go bathe.
so that she will feel fresher.
and feel more awake.
so kind quarrelled.
i din wan to quarrel with her.
my intention is to be strict forcing her to study.
bud that doesn't work.
so.
she went to bathe.
after that she went back to study.
again.
she study half way through.
she fell asleep.
and around midnight 1+ she called..
i know she felt screwed.
cause her notes,
out of 40+ pages,
30 pages were smurge by her marker.
and u noe the ink of the marker will spread and leak.
so she was crying.
it hurts to me hear her cry.
and i duno wad to do.
so i kinda get fed up.
asking her to stop crying.
and guess wad.
she hung up on me.
i called back.
bud was transfered to her voice mail.
so i keep calling.
den msg her.
and continue calling.
finally she picked up the phone.
telling me how sad she was and everything.
her mind was blank.
totally can't tink of solution to that.
i tried hard.
and she doesn't know y nowadays she is so tired.
keep having the mentality that..
she should quickly finish this work.
and get some rest like taking a short nap.
i really duno how to help her.
when she cant even endure.
she doesn't have much time to study already.
and she already spared time for me.
i feel lyk a burden to her.
i'm so f****** useless!
i can't do anything to help.
all i can do is stay by her side.
giving her moral support.
i can only share her prob.
bud i only can listen.
i wan to do something for her..
to make her feel better.
i cant be with her.
whenever i'm beside her.
she will just fall asleep.
so much for being a cushion.
and it sucks!
i'm speechless.
and i'm lost.
all i can say.
is she have to depend on herself.
i cant help with her studies.
i cant make her feel awake.
wad a lousy boyf. i am..
DAMN!!!!
i just feel lyk banging my head against the wall.
this feeling sucks.
wanted to do something to help.
yet i cant do anything.
SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WAD TO DO!!!!!!

ps: who doesn't have attitude!

left 7:57 AM

yesterday,
work was quite busy..
did a lot of stuff..
den went to sch for training..
kenneth rented a car and he came to fetch me..
hahas..
he was looking at the street directory and driving at the same time!
hahas...
on my way home..
baby said she wanted to take a nap..
so she asked me to wake her up at 9p.m
around 9 plus..
i called..
i tried to wake her up.
bud i couldn't..
so i lied..
that its 9.55p.m
hahas...
she fell for that..
and her reaction was funny..
just can't stop laughing..
hahas...
and now i noe..
waking baby up is not an easy task..
it took 1 hour plus for me to wake her up..
and she force herself out of bed..
i merely call her..
wasn't effective..
and she said my voice lyk wanna die lyk that..
and that makes her feel sleepy..
*sigh*
imma bad boyf.
sometimes i just feel that i'm not good enough for her..

ps: Emo kid is back!

left 7:57 AM

sometimes,
i dk wad i'm thinking..
i just feel trapped in my own space..
i dk wads going on..
all i noe is everything doesn't feel right..
i'm tired..
sometimes i just wish i can sleep all day long..
with her in my arms..
that moment..
so peaceful..

this song is kinda emo..
bud i like it..

My immortal -evansence

left 10:50 AM

Oh my god!
i look lyk a god damn drug addict when i'm having running nose..
and due to the swine flu period..
i guess other peeps will stay far away from me when they see me..
i'm tired..
i just wanna lie on my bed..
i've got 15 more weeks to go.
still god damn long to go!

any way..
as i was sick ytd..
din really talk to baby much..
these few days..
she has been busy with her school work too..
been a few days since we last talked on the phone.
it seems lyk a few weeks to me.
kinda not used to it.
bud i guess i will get used to it soon =)
as she will be busy preparing for A's.

ps: nothing's gonna change..

left 10:11 AM

i had a nightmare last night..
woke up with tears..
something that i fear..
glad that i was just a nightmare..
cause nightmare wun come true..

any way,
went to baby's house just now..
was reading magazine while she do her work..
*sigh*
everytime we get together..
time just pass unknowingly fast..
its not enough..
i cant bear to part..
parted for a few mins..
and i start to miss her lyk mad..
i miss those sweet embrace..
her smile..
her eye..
the smell of her shampoo..
her everything..

it's the end of weekend..
means i gotta go back to work..
and i'll be looking forward to another weekend..
*sigh*
next week only get to meet her once.
=(


i saw an halo over her..
she is my angel..
the angel that took my breathe away..
my heart, my soul..
she is my everything..
the love of my life..

left 9:52 PM

things between us are better now...
bud still it feels kinda weird...
idk how to explain..
just doesnt feel the same..
mayb it takes a few days for it to feel lyk before..
idk..
i just hope everything will be back to normal..

any way,
was feeling bored and nothing to do..
so did some quiz on fb..
love language.
the results that i got..

Physical Touch
Many mates feel the most loved when they receive physical contact from their partner. For a mate who speaks this love language loudly, physical touch can make or break the relationship.


Goh took the Which Love Language do you have? quiz and the result is Time and Attention
You are a person of Time and Attention. This means you are most touched when people spend time with you and listen when you talk. You enjoy to do the same for others. Time and attention are a great way of communicating, but when someone else you love doesn't necessarily talk the way you do, it doesn't mean they don't love you. What would be their primary love language? The downside of this love language can be people assume you are lazy because you take your time. Try to find out how hey treat you when they try to show love, and try to speak their love language back to them so they feel loved. One last point to mention is that God also communicates in your love language. He uses time and attentin, too. He says in the Bible that He loves you, that you are the apple of His eye, and that He wants you to come to Him and talk to Him. He loves you and gave Jesus (God Himself in human form) to bridge the gap caused by the fall of sin through which we cannot fully obey the law He gave us. He made the solution through Jesus, and when accepting Him, you'll accept God Himself, Who loves you, and wants to communicate with you. You are the attention, His focus. He is the same yesterday, today and forever. Yes, He is timeless, patient, for ever present, and eternal!

ps: the love i have for her is getting way beyond my imagination..

left 12:24 AM

my tears just cant stop flowing..
my heart just cant stop aching..

i've shouldn't have think...
its brings unhappiness..
its all my fault..
how i wish i can just stand on the roof top..
look at the scenery..
close my eyes..
feel nature..
and fall..
bud that doesnt end the unhappiness..

i'm utterly sorry..
i have reflected on wad i've done..
i've think of it till i cant think any more...
i'm sorry...
very very very sorry...
i noe apologising doesnt help..
bud there is nothing i can do..
except that i promise i'll never think again...
i swear i'll...
please believe in me...
i love you, baby...
i really do...

left 10:57 AM