how i wish i have a wide vocab of how to describe a bastard.
*sigh*
i noe she dun like to see this kind of post..
bud its just how i feel.

i feel that i will only hinder her studies..
i'm of no much help to her..
i just hate myself for disturbing her when she is studying..
and when we are suppose to do our work..
i ended up sleeping on her bed..
which in de end makes her sleepy too..

such a bastard i am!
i just cant forgive myself..

when i tink about it..
i feel that i dun worth her love..
bud at the same time..
i'm thankful that i have her..

why am i so self-centered?
why must i be so selfish?
why can't i just spare a thought for her.

i just wanna tell her..
i'm thankful for the love she have for me..
i'm thankful for sparing time out of her busy and stressful life for me..
and i apreciated it..
i'm sorry baby!
i'm sorry~

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