*sigh*
last night baby was tired..
so studied half way..
she went to take a short nap..
i was to wake her up at 10.
so i called her at 10.
couldn't wake her up.
around 10.30,
her phone low batt.
so was kinda forced to wake up.
she talked to me on msn.
so i tot she was up.
so i replied.
tinking that how come so long she still nv reply.
tot she would be studying.
so i went to bathe.
never did i noe..
she actually went back to sleep!!!!!
*faint*
so i called her..
keep asking her to go bathe.
so that she will feel fresher.
and feel more awake.
so kind quarrelled.
i din wan to quarrel with her.
my intention is to be strict forcing her to study.
bud that doesn't work.
so.
she went to bathe.
after that she went back to study.
again.
she study half way through.
she fell asleep.
and around midnight 1+ she called..
i know she felt screwed.
cause her notes,
out of 40+ pages,
30 pages were smurge by her marker.
and u noe the ink of the marker will spread and leak.
so she was crying.
it hurts to me hear her cry.
and i duno wad to do.
so i kinda get fed up.
asking her to stop crying.
and guess wad.
she hung up on me.
i called back.
bud was transfered to her voice mail.
so i keep calling.
den msg her.
and continue calling.
finally she picked up the phone.
telling me how sad she was and everything.
her mind was blank.
totally can't tink of solution to that.
i tried hard.
and she doesn't know y nowadays she is so tired.
keep having the mentality that..
she should quickly finish this work.
and get some rest like taking a short nap.
i really duno how to help her.
when she cant even endure.
she doesn't have much time to study already.
and she already spared time for me.
i feel lyk a burden to her.
i'm so f****** useless!
i can't do anything to help.
all i can do is stay by her side.
giving her moral support.
i can only share her prob.
bud i only can listen.
i wan to do something for her..
to make her feel better.
i cant be with her.
whenever i'm beside her.
she will just fall asleep.
so much for being a cushion.
and it sucks!
i'm speechless.
and i'm lost.
all i can say.
is she have to depend on herself.
i cant help with her studies.
i cant make her feel awake.
wad a lousy boyf. i am..
DAMN!!!!
i just feel lyk banging my head against the wall.
this feeling sucks.
wanted to do something to help.
yet i cant do anything.
SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WAD TO DO!!!!!!

ps: who doesn't have attitude!

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