*sigh*
this few days,
we had been quarrelling..
and she is getting irritated easily..
i really duno wad to do.
i dun wan to quarrel.
really hurts me to quarrel with her..
and i start to tink.
do i understand her well enough?
this morning we quarrelled.
and we had a better understanding of each other.

bud i really have to say this..
imma bad boyfriend.
i'm so self-centered.
i only tink about myself.
nv consider her feelings.
yet she considered my feelings.
i feel so bad.
i'm gonna change!
i'm not gonna glue to her.
as in keep wanting to msg her and stuff.
cause i noe she have to focus and she doesn't have the time.
i will only be a burden and hinder her studies.
so i've decided to find things to do.
lyk go jogging while she is doing her work.
and we'll meet once a week.
i dun wan to see this relationship to end.
i really don't.

today,
we met up to go jurong point.
cause she nv been there.
so i'm on my way to orchard to meet her.
while on the train.
i've been thinking about those quarrel we had.
my tears just seems to start rolling.
i hold back my tears.
bud the ache is still there.
even when i was preparing to go out.
my tears already started to roll down my cheeks.
i just can't help it.
i can't control it.
i'm struggling to hold back those tears.
i noe i'm such a cry baby..
i just dun wanna lose her.
afterall,
she is the only girl that i've love so deeply.
compared to all my previous relationship.

i just hope everything will feel the same..
will be the same as before.
bud i noe..
it will nv be..
somehow,
more or less, there will be changes.
*sigh*

ps: baby, i noe u will be unhappy after u read this post..
its just all that i've gotta say.

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