LOVE. BETRAYAL.

suddenly, it came to my mind.
this phrase " to love some one, it takes a lot of courage"
in the past,
i dun get wad it means.
but now,
i get to noe how it feels.

and i'm a guy who gets jealous easily..
so when she talked about her ex..
no matter which ex is she talking about..
i just feel jealous..
jealousy always never fail to control over me..

when will i ever stop being such a perfectionist?
when?

my greatest fear..
is afraid of losing her..
i have been thinking..
what will happen if she leaves me for another guy..
i noe that will never happen, bud life is unpredictable.
i kept thinking, when i'm enlisted..
will she ever betray my love for her..
the answer right now is no.. she wun..
bud lyk i've said..
life is unpredictable..
i've heard stories of girlf running away with another guy while the guy is serving for the country.
i'm so afraid that it will happen...
thats the fear i have..

i noe she wun leave me...
bud, i'm lyk this..
pessimistic...
just let me be..

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