why am i always thinking of negative things?
i couldn't find an answer to that question..

maybe i'm inferior..
doesn't think that i'm good enough for any one..

bud it not fair to her with all these thoughts...
bringing her sadness instead of happiness..

everything just not that way i wanted..
thats so much for being a perfectionist..
thinking of how i wan to live my life..
how i wan things to be..

bud its all out of my reach..

and i find no solution to solve this problem that i have..

mayb i should continue being lazy..
lazy to think..
lazy to care..
lazy to bother...
just wanna lie on my bed..
watch that damn tv..

i just duno what is wrong with me...
nothing is wrong with this relationship..
yet i just feel wrong..
and i duno why...
i just wanna be a perfect boyf.
which i dun think i can..

PERFECTIONIST! GO AWAY!!!

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