alright..
its been quite a while since i last updated this..

firstly, i've this bad news..
everyone will be ending their attachment 2 weeks later..
however,
mine will end 4 weeks later..
just because i took a day off one the last week of my attachment.
so my supervisor asked me to extend till the end of aug.
i've gt no choice,
i can't bring myself to reject him..
so i've to endure for another 2 weeks..

secondly,
baby gave me a card for our 3rd monthsary..
i love it alot..
every card that she made for me..
i treasure it..
cause its my everything..

thirdly,
i extremely detest myself..
when i looked into the mirror,
i felt so disgusted by the monster i see.
such a selfish monster..

baby has lots of work undone,
yet,
i wasted a whole afternoon of hers.
which she could have completed some work.

i felt so guilty,
felt so bad..
i can't help but to blame myself..
i noe by saying sorry it doesn't help..
but there is nothing else i can do..

felt so useless..
wad a f****** useless and self-centered boyf i am.

my heart ache extremely,
now that we have to cut down the days we get to see each other..
from 2-3 days to 1 day.
and..
according to wat she wrote in the card..
its true..
we haven been talking much lately.
as she have to do her work..

when she is stress.
i tried to encourage her..
cheer her up..
but everytime i try..
i only make things worst.
what kind of boyf am i?

everytime she is tired and wanted to take short nap.
i tried to wake her up.
bud i always fell asleep before i could give her a wake up call.
and by getting irritated when we were on phone and she fell asleep..
thats a wrong move..
cause when i fell asleep while on phone.
i bet she also felt the same way as i do.
and i'm not in the position to get irritated..
cause most of the time,
i'm the one who fell asleep..
what kind of boyf am i?

i left her hanging..
i made her stress..
i add problems to her current one.
what kind of boyf i am?

realli felt so disgusted by the actions i do.
i tried real hard,
but i just screwed things up.
*sigh*

ps: i'm utterly sorry baby!
i'm not a good boyf.
i'm not worthy.

Label: simplicity is beauty...

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